its obvious that you dont know God and you've not been praying well.If the foundation is faulty what can the righteous do, depending on where you met her under which circumstance and conditions you met her its good enough to make a choice but its better if you allow God to influence your choice to make a better choice. marriage is one of the experience that brings life back to you when you need it and its most enjoyed activity in the world provided you've made a good choice, God is love he commanded it and its and been working for those that put their trust in the LORD cheers really, God loves you and will give you what will give you joy and happiness and not your heart desire cos who knows it might hurt you. God bless.