Dear Z',
Honestly, it is very painful when one is working and nothing to show for it.You really need to sit down and think on the type of job u want for urself.As an economics graduate, u really do not have much to fear.Keep applying and learn how to sow into the things of God.I know him: he will give u your heart desire.As per ur Job,if you hate the Job totally u can take a bow but if not, still hold onto it.You can also talk to your boss to move u to Account section of the company where u can be useful to the company and your experimental upfront would have been taken care of.It wouldn't be a bad idea if u could register with ICAN.However ,you got to be determine,discipline and focus.Surely, u will laugh last .Shalom
Yours
Jibowu